School is reopening in 2 weeks, and it feels so surreal that i'm going to be in my final year. My future scares me, I really can't see anything ahead at all.I know what I want to do, I know my dreams, I just don't know how to get there.

Recently, I've been accepted into a 2 month long future film workshop in TISCH School of the Arts. When I got there I was flabbergasted seriously. The facilities, the teachers, the students it is seriously an eyeopener.

The facilities are seriously A++++ with a shiny golden star to add on to that. Well firstly,there are yoga mats provided for students to sleep and some students were even having a quick shut-eye on the leather couches. I know lying on the couches to sleep is nothing much haha but providing yoga mats for the students to sleep that's damn brilliant!

Secondly, there are iMacs everywhere!!!There are iMacs at the lounging area for the students to entertain themselves with. Even at the service counter,the opening and closing hours are displayed on an iMac. I'm not being a mountain tortoise, but seriously, the amount of iMacs there are astounding.

I really love the environment there though, it is really relaxing. But I think their workload should be crazy though that's why it is important to have a conducive environment. The teachers are really friendly, I saw Randy Jackson's doppleganger. Everybody there is so friendly, almost 90% of the students I've encountered smiles at you. LIKE WOWWWW. HAHA OK FUCK I REALLY DO SOUND LIKE A MOUNTAIN TORTOISE. BUT SERIOUSLY. I can safely say this is the first time i've encountered people who are so friendly. Usually when you're outside and a stranger smiles at you it's usually under these circumstances

1)Salesperson
2) Salesperson
3) Salesperson
4) Genuinely friendly person


You get what I mean right? Actually I realise that Singaporeans ( including me ) have this mentality usually when a stranger smiles at them in their minds they'll be like " Siao ah, why is that person smiling at me" Hahaha quite funny actually when you think about it. It's not that we are unfriendly/arrogant, it's just that we like minding our business. Singaporeans lead a hectic lifestyle there is no doubt about that, it is hard to slow down and take a breather with such a fast pace of life.

Anyway I digress, TISCH is a really liberal school. I guess this stems from the fact that it is originally from New York. Me and my friends saw brochures about tips on safe gay,lesbian and bisexual sex lying around. It was pretty fun to read though.
Fun Fact: New York University's Health centre offers free condoms in the choices of lubricated/non-lubricated to their students, they also offer free lubricants ( in the choices of silicon based/water based) too.


But I wonder will anybody go and redeem these "freebies". Imagine this scenario

Mood: Awkward

Boy: Hi may I have a free condom please? * Insert Accent :__Brit Accent___*
Nurse: Oh would you like them lubricated or non-lubricated?
Boy: Erm...lubricated please

- Awkward Silence as Nurse rummages drawer

And well the awkwardness just continues.....

Maybe it's just me, feeling the awkwardness.I'm wondering in such a scenario would Singaporeans choose awkwardness or would they rather buy their own protection?

Why does this post feel so awkward........ I blame it on the fact that i've not been blogging for 4 months. My minds are clogged full of thought feels good to be penning my thoughts down again.

Anyway it's 5 now , really need some sleep damn badly so byeee.

Revived

Sometimes, in life the only person whom you can rely on is yourself. Expectations brings about disappointment.That's why sometimes don't expect too much from others, but do have sky high expectations for yourselves.

Our loneliness will swallow us up.
Gobble us whole.

Gonna be 18 in exactly 3.5 hours. Damn. Am seriously having mixed feelings.

If all the thoughts in my mind could add on to my weight, i would be obese now. One week out of my precious 3 weeks has past.... i didnt do anything much, next week i'll be super busy. Left with the last week which would be filled with school work and projects. Wanna stab myself now. haha I like being busy , I want to do a stop mo video this hols, but till now i've no idea what i want to do. arghhh infuriating i swear. I've been stuck in Singapore for 7 years. NOT COOL. haha have to get the fuck out next year

Super excited for tomorrow gonna pierce my labret hhehehe, wont bother hiding this time already

Two more days left, 3 more weeks of holidays and there 'll only be 2 more months left before i'm a 3rd year student. Time flies so fucking fast that everyday is like a rush. Especially during school hours, a rush of deadlines, a rush to get to school on time. It's only when the weekends and holidays come when the days come to a slower pace. I do enjoy going to school though, just not this semester. Got sooo much plans for the holssss exciting.

I honestly cant wait for the holidays to come. To get out of school. Fuck school totally suck balls this semester. Definitely the worst semester ever